Sometimes you think you know where you are heading.
You can see exactly where you are going and you can calculate when you are going to arrive.
And then, when you least expect it, things change.
Every plan you had is interrupted.
Every ending you saw in sight has disappeared.
Now on the horizon is a totally different future.
In August 2009, I left my full-time job in the Media and Advertising world to pursue my desire to run a business fulltime. That year, the boys were 9, 7 and 3 years old. My life felt crazy and out of control. My job was overly stressful and the hours were ridiculous. What had once been a joyous experience where I felt fulfilled became a burdensome experience where I felt completely drained. When I left, I vowed I never wanted to return to that industry again.
I spent the next 5 years growing and running a successful business. I had a storefront for a couple years. I had a beautiful office space for a while. Eventually, I moved the entire operation to a spare bedroom (and any other open nook and cranny) at my house.
Working from home has been wonderful. Being my own boss has been awesome. I decided what I was going to do each day. I decided when I would work. I decided what type of work I wanted to do. Over the years, FCS Creations has taken many forms – from a wedding and stationery business to a spirit wear business to a personalized gifts and accessories business. When I was bored with producing a product, it went away. When I wanted to add a new product, overnight a new line was launched. What a great experience for a scatterbrain like me!
But, the downside of being your own boss is you are responsible for everything. From Marketing to Accounting to Production to Shipping to New Product Development to Strategic Alliances – I wear all the hats.
The other downside is that entrepreneurship in a semi-retail environment can be very unpredictable. What worked last year, may not work this year. I’m always looking for the next thing. What’s going to be hot next? What was hot last year? Is it still hot or at least lukewarm this year?
It can be exhausting and depressing and inspiring all at the same time. I find myself in a state of bipolar-ness. I have really high highs where I feel like I’ve finally found the paydirt (Gold Rush TV Show reference). And I have really low lows where I’m not sure when or if the next dollar will come.
In the midst of a low season (after a super high high) God called me to completely change course.
He sent me an unexpected opportunity to return to the corporate world.
I didn’t expect it. I didn’t see it coming. I wasn’t even looking for it.
God prepared the way completely for me and called me back to my first love of Media Buying.
I always LOVED the scope of my job. See, being a Media Buyer validates my excessive television addiction. Now, I watch TV for work! I’ve got to know what the shows are about in order to successful buy them!
Another drawback to my previous corporate experience was that it had a harsh daily commute.
My new position doesn’t require me to get on the highway at all. In fact, I only go through 8 traffic lights to get to work now.
My hours are great – amazing actually.
And I get paid to do something that I love and that validates the reason I took out all those student loans…
Now, I can fill my free time with my creative passion. Which means if there’s a reason to give a gift, I’m probably going to make it myself. If a friend or previous customer wants to purchase an FCS Creation, they can – I just will not be able to work on it until evening time or weekends (so plan ahead and accordingly y’all! LOL)
So my friends, seasons change. The outlook changes. The movie of your daily life changes.
I’m thankful that when God called me I was listening. I didn’t miss the call or let it go to voicemail. I have to make sure I’m sensitive to the Holy Spirit so I don’t miss the signals that He’s calling me to a new direction.
The whole situation reminded me of a hymn we used to sing in my grandparents church.
“Jesus calls us o’er the tumult
of our life’s wild, restless sea;
day by day His sweet voice soundeth,
saying, ‘Christian, follow me!’ ”
Is God calling you to make a change? Are you listening for His voice?